In a Nutshell...

  What a year!   Highs, lows, and everything else in between. My mother and I have had conversations about the last four years. God helped us through all of it. That is the only way our family persevered. The blessings are abundant in my life now more than ever. My father's passing in July 2014 was rough. People have told me the first holidays after his death are the hardest and those people were not joking. I usually am unaware of when I will start crying and how long it will last. Christmas eve service at church was especially hard because in my head I heard my dad's voice singing a Christmas song. I have heard his voice twice in the last month and I immediately start crying. It is not an overwhelming sadness because it makes me happy to hear his voice. It was nice to hear his voice again. The memories of my father play out in my head quite a bit and that makes me happy. Thanksgiving and Christmas were weird this year and fortunately not too depressing. Thanksgiving the was ...

Two years ago during this first week of December I received a diagnosis of Cancer. Wow...never thought I would ever hear that but I did. Now, after two years I think back to what my life was like, what I have went through, and what I am still going through. Although the world continued to spin and life kept going my life was put on hold to a certain extent for a couple weeks. I was living in a bubble for a few months while God healed me. I thank God every day for complete healing. The side effects from having thyroid cancer have been frustrating and I still struggle. I have learned a lot though. I have taken a few steps backwards but I am in a good place. God brought me through a rough time and I get better everyday. With his help I know I can keep moving. I am still hopeful for my life and know someday "some parts" will work out. Maybe sooner, than later...who knows...God knows and I have to remind myself everyday. I still struggle with stupid thoughts but dwelling on them i...